Feels and unexpected!

Desucon was a few weeks ago, the first Desucon that I didn't attend to, and really happy about that!
As I see pictures of amazing cosplay, especially my friends whom seem to get better nonstop, I feel like I'm left behind...

Even thou I've lost a great deal of weight from since I started cosplaying and now others have started to notice it too, I'm really happy about the comments but as I look in the mirror every day I see myself fatter than before, even if I'm buying smaller sized clothes I'm still the ugly me. No one is perfect but I'm far from normal, it hurts to see others how great they're looking as I embarres myself.

I started cosplaying because it was fun, to gain friends and I did! But now...all this pain...I'm lost...

Cosplay no longer holds the strong meaning of happiness for me as it did in the past. I'm not saying I'm quiting! I just don't enjoy it as much, knowing that I'll get more hurt by it.

Oh I was at Kawacon in Joensuu! I was working for Manga Café so I was mostly behind their table..
It was a very quiet convention, which was kinda sad but I still had a great time with Milla, going swimming and stuff!

Also almost done with Tifa!

Cute hotel!!!

Delicious cake at con!!!

Unfinnished Tifa!!

Kappa!Cloud

Heads up!

Money being reeeeaaaaal tight means not knowing what I'll be able to do this year so it might be very quite here for a long time...

The only cosplay that I've planned to do is even a maybe, and that one would be to redo Rinoa Heartilly.

As for conventions...the summer Desucon is already sold out but I wasn't planning to go there anyways unless they have some really awesome program...
Bakacon got canceled, Animecon is waaaaaayyyyy to far away, Tracon might actually be the only big con that I might go to, so there you have it! No idea where I'll be going to this year, but I'm hoping to be more at artist alley's.

So now is a good year to save money, lose weight (and find love <3 (LOL))!

Lastly I really want to thank my readers who enjoy following my blog!
Until the time fandom hits me!

Frostbite 2013 Afterward part 1

This part is just some pics of my cosplay that I made well in time~

Ruiko, witch of the North from Zone-00! Had a hard time finding reference pictures!!! Another problem was that I kept losing weight while making it and then had no time to make it smaller :P OH WELL~   + I don't look like a cute little girl so it doesn't really suit me :'<

Cosplay Memes

I don't feel like posting the 2013 cosplay meme on dA since it looks so stupid and empty + I really don't have any certain plans for this year. Also adding 2011 and 2012 for fun.

First cosplay for 2013!

Started it on Monday and I've gotten a lot already done just in two days!!! So happy!
This will be my coming cosplay for Desucon Frostbite 2013. Sorry I don't have time to write more nor do I know what I should write :P Soo...
Here are some progress pics!~